im so sorry la...
i noe i cant be lik tat....
but...i fail to do it..
may b u think y i can have other fren i cant have other fren...
because im afraid mah....
i have so many frens..but i treat u r my only close fren...
im afraid u wont be so close with me jor..perhaps u slowly close with red ppl jor..
yeah...i had tried to think wont geh..... "our friendship is so steady 1..."
but i don have confident...

because last time "ppl" had told me that he worried 1 day 3 of us will have any conflict, den the ending same as jia yee and choo yee.
 i told him...不会啦。。。我们不可能发生这样的事情的饿啦。。。对我们的友谊有信心一点
but 1 day conflict between ppl and u really happened in real life...
actually tat time i think y u can be so 绝
and my os is omg...unbelievable 3 of us will happen this kind of thing....
really OMG.!!!!!
but seriously i really really support u...i stand on ur side..

1 more thing i can admit is...honestly..i quite enjoy the moment with u after tat case

but now...red ppl is intervene between us ad...and automatically my mind start worry ard...
i scare he will be same position as me...
actually im appreciate u will tell me when u go out with him or do what with him...
atleast u r not scare of  me and cheat me....
if u really cheat me..i will more dissapointed and think more and more...
and i really do not wan u stress on me...

im really really sorry i think lik tat....and i always tried my best do not think lik tat..but fail to do it..
if i going to tell u what i think..
for sure u will start stress on me..feel 反感...and cheat me...and perhaps 1 day i gonna be another "ppl"
so i choose to simpan in my hati and 发泄 here...
because i think now no 1 will c my blog again...

seriously...i wont leave u away because i really really treat u as my only close fren even can say bro
i hope u can increase my confident ....