im so sorry la...
i noe i cant be lik tat....
but...i fail to do it..
may b u think y i can have other fren i cant have other fren...
because im afraid mah....
i have so many frens..but i treat u r my only close fren...
im afraid u wont be so close with me jor..perhaps u slowly close with red ppl jor..
yeah...i had tried to think wont geh..... "our friendship is so steady 1..."
but i don have confident...

because last time "ppl" had told me that he worried 1 day 3 of us will have any conflict, den the ending same as jia yee and choo yee.
 i told him...不会啦。。。我们不可能发生这样的事情的饿啦。。。对我们的友谊有信心一点
but 1 day conflict between ppl and u really happened in real life...
actually tat time i think y u can be so 绝
and my os is omg...unbelievable 3 of us will happen this kind of thing....
really OMG.!!!!!
but seriously i really really support u...i stand on ur side..

1 more thing i can admit is...honestly..i quite enjoy the moment with u after tat case

but now...red ppl is intervene between us ad...and automatically my mind start worry ard...
i scare he will be same position as me...
actually im appreciate u will tell me when u go out with him or do what with him...
atleast u r not scare of  me and cheat me....
if u really cheat me..i will more dissapointed and think more and more...
and i really do not wan u stress on me...

im really really sorry i think lik tat....and i always tried my best do not think lik tat..but fail to do it..
if i going to tell u what i think..
for sure u will start stress on me..feel 反感...and cheat me...and perhaps 1 day i gonna be another "ppl"
so i choose to simpan in my hati and 发泄 here...
because i think now no 1 will c my blog again...

seriously...i wont leave u away because i really really treat u as my only close fren even can say bro
i hope u can increase my confident ....

after chat with you..actually i being emo what u had talked to me...
y so hard?? i just want to have a sincere best friendship with you until the end..
is tat hard??
our friendship will affected once you are in relationship??
if ur future gf do not like me..u leave me ??
is that really come out from your heart??
haiz... i have been though u r not a person lik this...
my brain now really blank ard...
i hope u r joking with me..but seems u r telling me the truth...
i don noe...
i most upset the sentence is u had said that: if your future gf do not like me, u will leave me away.
so this is what i deserve from you?
i really don noe u r joking or serious.
u just make me down
and u reduce my confidence again