浩铭啊 浩铭。。。
你可以不要这样吗？？？
为什么我终是爱那么忧郁 leh？？？
唉。。。
我也不懂。。。
你不能这样控制你的好朋友的吗。。。
可是我就是不喜欢被忽略的感觉。。。
你们讲的话题，我参不进。。。
感觉就像我才是外人。。。
浩铭浩铭。。。
不能这样想。。。
不可以让他有压力。。。
不能。。。
可是。。。
其实我不是很喜欢那个red ppl 慢慢的介入我们中。。。
其实我很怕。。。有一天
我会变成第二个ppl。。。
虽然说我每次告诉我自己不会的啦。。。
要对雄有信心。。。
可是。。。有时候可能就是我的想太多。。。我的忧郁。。。
让我没信心。。。
其实啦。。
我就是不甘心每次如果我们和red ppl出去。。。
就是有时候有种感觉我被忽略了。
nonono。。。。浩铭。。。stop。。。。
这里写。。。这里发泄算了。。
控制。。控制。。

That day at genting ... Holding his phone.. And tat suey chea msg him .: i only saw the msg from notification , smt like upload more photos let her like la..:
I swear i din click in c the msg... Even im soooo curious what they talking about..
Who is her??? Bt im feeling upset... Because my best fren rather tell other ppl thing oso don wan tell me.... 我连她都不如吗? Feeling like wanted to ask him... Bt i knew ... You will tell me as last time 1...
Y u so willing to tell her thing leh?? She even nt ur fren ... N she is ppl's fren ...
I really hope you can tell me everything without i find it out and ask u...

I don noe you will blame me that I don wan red ppl go out with us anot...
But..I hope you can understand..I just want every outing can feel relax, happy, crazy without limit..
actually im quite enjoy currently ... not really wan other ppl interfere among us...
sounds like so selfish hor....??

actually i dont mind sometimes go out with him if he jio us first once in a while..like go yam cha only...u ask me..i go only...
but if what we have plan..den he suddenly join..or suddenly jio...den...lik tat lo....
i don noe??? may b u think im selfish??
ya lo..im selfish lo..im selfish for my happy...
lol
u noe ? I don noe u understand my feeling anot...



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bro and sis also have this kind of exp in friendship...
how come ah???
seriously..im quite worry happen same thing on us...me and heong..
i really really really hope it will not be happen in the future...
i really really really hope our best friendship could eternal, forever...
i only admit you are my only best fren and bro in my life...even ur position is over my siblings..lol
might sounds cheesy...but its really what i think..hehe...

i realized...unofficially, our friendship almost 8 years...
but officially, our friendship almost 9 years...because i noe u during form 3..and i went your house play games b4....i think u might forget about it..but i do remember...

your sis might right..some people are just pass by in ur life...
but some people willing to stop and park in ur life..to become your bro, sis, soulmate, and spouse..
actually i very appreciate our friendship...
i try to maintain our friendship....

i have to say...
when the incident happened among you and ppl...
you might think im on your side because i feel same thing with you....
but i gotta say...even im not feeling same thing with you...
or if even actually is your problem.....
im surely , definitely, conlanfirm support you, on your side...
because bro for life mah... hahaha...

but sometimes if i said something or advice you something that may make u unpleasant..
i hope you understand...just for your own good...never wan to bring bad to you.. LOL LOL..
seriously 1....

better than you....i aways ask you some advice...what your advice to me only is..
you like lo.... is your money mah...you like lo..is your freedom mah....
du lan lo....if im your best fren...you shud give your since advice to me mah....
i noe what u think.... u've been aways said...做你自己，喜欢做什么就做什么。。。
u noe ...actually it is half wrong.... it will mislead people in other way...
tats y gt robbery, rape, smoke, drug abuse, do bad thing...
i noe some ppl if gt brain will not do all those bad thing..
but sometimes smart ppl will make wrong decision, will do wrong thing oso...
sometimes 当局者迷，旁观者清。。。。

sienz till die ahh.!!! all the day do same thing....
n